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Firstly I'd like to explain that I'm using an alt account to post this, I feel it would be difficult for me to post this on my main account. I trust staff enough to not give out my real forum name and to understand why I've used an alt account.
Recently I've been in and out of hospital with mental health concerns, It all started I guess a few years back when I was forced to move away from my 2 month old child and my partner at the time.
Since then it feels like life just keep throwing crappy hands at me, Depression was the first punch which hit very hard, It's not like I haven't experienced it before but this was something else. A sense of nothing but darkness and doom.
More recently I've been noticing some strange feelings and emotions, nothing that I've ever experienced before, a voice, yea sounds crazy right? The thing is, it isn't what you see in the movies, no shouting, no arguments but small whispers, a constant feeling of something running along my skin. To be honest I think I'm scared of the future, It's not like I haven't seen this in movies and those A&E shows, What will this become? will it get worse? Will it get to the point where I may just end it all because it's it becomes too much to handle? I already want it to stop. I literally can't remember the last time I ate either.
I'm working on some mir related projects at the moment and I really am concerned it may be some of the last I work on.
Doctors and local community based help is backed up 2-4 years. I'm worried I wont make it till then.
I just don't know what to do
Recently I've been in and out of hospital with mental health concerns, It all started I guess a few years back when I was forced to move away from my 2 month old child and my partner at the time.
Since then it feels like life just keep throwing crappy hands at me, Depression was the first punch which hit very hard, It's not like I haven't experienced it before but this was something else. A sense of nothing but darkness and doom.
More recently I've been noticing some strange feelings and emotions, nothing that I've ever experienced before, a voice, yea sounds crazy right? The thing is, it isn't what you see in the movies, no shouting, no arguments but small whispers, a constant feeling of something running along my skin. To be honest I think I'm scared of the future, It's not like I haven't seen this in movies and those A&E shows, What will this become? will it get worse? Will it get to the point where I may just end it all because it's it becomes too much to handle? I already want it to stop. I literally can't remember the last time I ate either.
I'm working on some mir related projects at the moment and I really am concerned it may be some of the last I work on.
Doctors and local community based help is backed up 2-4 years. I'm worried I wont make it till then.
I just don't know what to do